This was a great quote my husband Nathan relayed to me from a TV show last night and boy oh boy does it sum up my last couple of weeks!!
I've been a victim of my monkey mind of late...getting too caught up in every which way my thoughts bounce around!
I love getting to the bottom of things, loving knowing why, love the fact that everything happens for a reason...but lately I think I've just got too wrapped up in trying to figure it all out and have ended up with a bit of overload happening.
All in all, it really is a bit tricky to keep up this charade when the world keeps turning, and there's a zillion things happening every second...so all I've wanted to do is yell STOP...LET ME CATCH UP!!!
But life doesn't stop does it - and without realising it, I've gotten a bit, well overwhelmed really.
Although not openly!
Nope, I didn't actually realise how much was flinging around in my head until the last few days when I've remembered how to talk/vent and cry of course!
It's just been simmering away under the surface, and even the tennis matches have been quite subtle. I just really hadn't stopped for long enough to say hang on, what's all this about!
Then there's been the good old fear vs faith aspect...you know the one. I know everything's working out for my highest good, but seriously can't I just know how, when and why?!
And my personal favourite - not wanting to think or say anything negative or be focused on what I don't want, because I don't want to bring that into my life. Just quietly, not an easy task!
Yikes! All in all I've had many a moment of wanting it all to just go away. But then, that wouldn't be learning now would it!
Reading back over this, I get this funny feeling of deja vu...oh that's right, I've been here before!
Yep, this does seem to be a bit of a cycle of mine. I swing between being upbeat, living in the now and just letting life happen...to wanting to know why it's all happening and in general deciding that everything I'm doing isn't enough.
Oh well, I guess the upside is that I can see all of it from an objective perspective. And it reminds me that I'm still very much a student of life.
So, here are some of my lessons from this that I still need to learn!
- Don't forget to let it out!! Writing is a great way for me to get perspective, and I feel so much better once I do it!
- Lighten up & stop taking life so seriously
- It doesn't matter if I miss one turnoff, there's always another one
- I don't need to figure it all out, just be glad it's all working...and that I don't have to run the Universe!
- Look at the forest...not just the trees
- Don't forget to talk to others...and ask for help!
- Every decision I make is perfect
- I'm always exactly where I need to be
- Be grateful for all of the great things I have in my life
- Simplify, simplify, simplify
- Give myself a break!!
And another great one - I love writing blogs, so I don't want to have another 2 week hiatus!! I've had many an idea floating in my head...but supposedly not the time to do it.
Ugh, time management...yep that's another blog entirely!
Anyway, when I take the time to step back, I realise that my life is still great, and these are all just blips.
I thought I'd leave you with a pic of me a couple of weeks ago when we cleaned up our area at work and found a bunch of wrapping paper and other goodies and couldn't resist mucking around with it.
I thought it was apt seeing as it's what I need to do...
Live in the present!!!!!!