Ahem, that was a bad joke...at any rate, I watched a great YouTube clip this morning by Doreen Virtue which hit the nail on the head for me in so many ways!
So if you'd like to watch it first, then here it is...or just scroll down...
Doreen kicks off with this cracking quote from Sheldon Kopp...
I've never begun any important venture, for which I felt adequately prepared.
This is a great segway into what in part has been hiding underneath the crab shell.
In short, I realised a couple of weeks ago that I've been a big, fat fraud! Well that's what I felt like anyway.
People would say to me 'how's study going?'...to which I'd reply 'well I'm getting there.' Which is French for 'I haven't actually opened my book or listened to a lecture since last year.'
Or they'd say 'it's so great that you're following your passion - good on you.'
And I was thinking - yep it's great. I like my job and I know where I want to go, and get super excited at the thought of it...but...
I have no idea what I'm doing!
Should I be studying? Am I doing the right course? Should I be doing more? How can I...? What if...? How do I get to...?
So instead of taking it one step at a time, I decided to stand still and wait for someone to come along with a lovely set of instructions which tell me what all of the steps are that will take me from where I am today, to fulfilling my life purpose.
I've been looking left and right for a while - but no cigar, the bus with the person on it who's giving me all of the answers in one neat little package isn't anywhere to be seen!!!
At any rate, all is definitely not lost.
While I haven't been doing any of my Cert IV this year (or Advanced Diploma, depending on how far I end up going with it!), I've been doing a world of learning in my own life!! All of which will be great for my future work.
And boy have I learnt a lot in the last couple of weeks since taking the shell off and saying 'HELP ME - I'M STUCK!!!'
In addition to some great, honest conversations with family and friends, one of the best things to happen has been my Skype session with Dr Susan Bernstein - aka a Career Reinvention Expert
(I won an hour session with her - just when I needed it! Worth over $300 just quietly!)
I asked Susan how I could move forward, and one of the first things she recommended I do was take some beautiful pens, and beautiful paper - and write down what I want to do. So that I've got it all in one place, and I can start ticking things off one at a time - starting with the easiest first!
Oh - why didn't I think of that?
I said to Susan that I've got it all written down, just in various places.
So I started by trawling through my journals and brainstorming last week...because there's more than one thing so it's not a quick excercise!
Once again, I'd definitely recommend Susan's Reinvent your Role course - it's fabulous for getting more out of your job now, and figuring out moreseo what you want.
Something that has jumped out to me from the YouTube clip as I'm typing...
Every dream can be broken down into small steps.
And I'd add that I only need to take those steps one at a time.
Something I've been forgetting about a bit of lately...yes I've definitely been showing my Generation Y'ness - I want it, and I want it all now!!!
Another bit that's jumped out...
Often people are looking for someone else to give them permission or validation to follow their purpose.
Yep, I think I've fallen into that category of late. Because I'm doing something that's "different" - so I've been on the seesaw of wanting to just fly under the radar, to being ready to explode with excitement!
So here goes...
- I give myself permission to be me...and I'm perfect just as I am!
- I give myself permission to do what feels right to me.
- I give myself permission to follow my dreams.
- I give myself permission to feel the fear...AND DO IT ANYWAY!!!
- I give myself permission to do this one step at a time...just one...then the next one.
- I give myself permission to fail.
- I give myself permission to move forward.
- I give myself permission to ask for help.
- I give myself permission to make mistakes.
- I give myself permission to be confused!
- I give myself permission to not have it all mapped out.
- I give myself permission to have faith.
- I give myself permission to succeed.
- I give myself permission to have fun with it!
Doreen's signoff, which I love...
If you're dreaming it - you can do it.
Yes I'm still a little scared, but that's not going to stop me. Woohoo - it's time to rock and roll!